Half Empty

They say a dead-end
Is when you have nowhere to go
But it's not the case for me
It's truly not so
You see, I have these two paths
I have these two roads
And still nowhere to go
I'm surely in a hole

The whole world just a glimpse
Into something much less
Everything fades through me
I surely am a ghost
You truly are my host

The glass is half full
Or is it half empty
No one knows
Standing-
I'm standing in this hole

So there you are, on the ground
Talking to God
Talking to me
And talking to yourself
But I still have this need
I must know
Why I'm in this hole
I'm better off alone
But I can't choose a road
You're praying to God
I'm still in the dark
I hear the harps
But I'm not convinced
And I don't believe it
I won't feed this

So here I walk alone
In a dark fog
The buildings all empty
And myself half full
Still in this hole
Still feeding me answers
I can never truly know
Until I'm one with the world
So I walk as a ghost
Across the Earth
But I'll only be more
Once I can decide
To leave you
And to leave it all behind
And I know-
You must of lied
But why are you here-
Holding my head
Catching my tears
Taking my fears
Not what I need
You are letting me feed
But I have to!:

Leave my past
Run away last
To fight first
To fight my thirst
With no more ghosts
And no more hosts

To rip through this hole
Even if I die
No more ghosts
I want to live
So no more you
No more hosts
I won't live like you
Won't live like myself

To stop my tears
Doesn't help me
Because you can't see
How I bleed
So here I lay, half full
Here I die, alone
There has to be another way
Out of this crater
I have to-
See you later,
When I'm sober,
You know'

But all the lies
With them, I slowly die
Have to stop myself
Must refuse to bleed
Have to choose
Because I refuse
To stay half empty
To die half full